words, more or less...

(sorry if this post seems to be chasing rabits. I was in Church yesterday and began to get ideas so I wrote down a lot of stuff and now that I have typed it out it isn't as smooth as it was in my head)

Ok, I am so tracking my points again! I know, I know. I have said this before and a week, a month or 6 months later I am back on here saying it again. But you know I guess that is why it is called a weight loss journey. It is like traveling. You have road bumps or turbulence. Well the weight loss road sometimes stops me in my tracks or often times it throws me back a few miles.

I was thinking the other day that weight loss is kind of like quitting smoking. Some may disagree, but here me out. They are both addictions that are unhealthy. When I am stressed the first place I go is the kitchen to open the fridge or pantry to see what we have to eat! When smokers are stressed they go to get a cigarette. They are both bad for you and hard to give up (overeating and smoking, not the weight loss and quitting)!

Well I am back at a point that I want to count my points again, no matter how hard. The last few weeks I have had a distraction in my life, but it is no longer there. I have to do something. I am reminded that I want to be around for my husband and children in 10, 20, 50 years. I don't want to end up on a TLC show about people who eat their way to death.

So with all that said I ask that you pray for me and with me. I would like to present my prayer to God and ask that you do the same:

Heavenly Father,
I have nothing on my own, You are my true provider. Thank you for giving me this body and life. give me Your strength to resist the things that bring medown both physically and emotionally. I ask that I be used for you. I thank you in advance for making me new! You are my Healer. I love you Lord.
Amen.

lots to say but no words

I have so much on my mind right now but can't seem to get it into words. Has anyone out there ever experienced that? Any tips on how to get my feelings and thoughts into words?

gain, ugh

Well I gained this week. I wasn't too surprised, although I must say I was glad it was only 2.6 pounds. I thought it may end up being around 4 pounds. I haven't been doing so well on counting my points or working out. Tonight at the meeting they said to be prepared for the unexpected. I think I have issues with that. I get thrown off one day and it throws me off for at least a few days. It seems that this time it has thrown me off for at least 4 weeks. I can't pin point the time or day that I was thrown off, but I am sure it was something unexpected.

I have just been down lately, tired, not wanting to do much of anything. I want so badly to just get back into things. I hate feeling this way. Ugh!!!!!!! It is like, I know what I have to do to loose weight, but I just don't care to do it. I wish I could just wake up skinny! (oh don't we all?)

Well I guess that is my vent for today. Keep me in your prayers as I try to work my feeling out and get back on track.

weigh in 6-17

I weighed in today and lost 2/10 of a pound. Of course when I got back to the car I realized that I had not gone to the bathroom before weighing, ugh. You know every little bit helps :) I am going to go to the meeting tomorrow night because Ian was asleep and I wanted to get back home to put him to bed.

long time no post...

Um, can it be true that I haven't posted anything on here since May 27th? Man I am behind. So I will just update you a little bit...

gained, lost, gained, lost, gained and lost again. :) That pretty much sums up my weight loss I am still going through this rough patch. I have days where I want to track my points and days that I don't want to track my points, days that I don't want to but do it any way. I am kind of back to a place of not caring. I hate being in this place.

One good thing is that I only gained 1 pound while on vacation! Then the week after I lost 1.2 so that was good! I am really going to try and walk more since it is nice weather again. The constant rain kind of got me out of the habit of walking during the day.

OK, I guess that is all. I will do my best to post again soon. I will be weighing in on Wednesday this week but still going to the Thursday meeting for moral support. You've got to love those meetings!