The bad news is the past few weeks I didn't care much about doing anything with regards to my weight loss. So with that I gained weight, I'm talking more than my starting weight. :(
The good news is that I talked to my weight watchers leader and am now doing better. This week I lost 4.2 pounds! Of course since I had gained so much over the last few weeks that makes my total weight loss 1.4 pounds, but I am really focused on counting my points right now, which is the main thing I need to do in regards to weight loss (right now).
Do you ever read in articles or see on blogs things that say "weight doesn't define who you are"? I want to be honest, I hate that saying. Because honestly I feel like weight does define who I am. I am fat, plane and simple. If I were skinny I would want that to be something that defined who I was too.
I have been thinking this week about my weight loss journey and I feel as though I will never get to my goal. I am always planning and saying "when I get to my goal weight I will..." but honestly I don't even see the road that leads to the tunnel where the light is supposed to be at the end of. I wish I could be a pretty fat person. I'm not saying I'm ugly, I just see other people that are over weight and they have these amazingly cute clothes that look great on them, but since I have such a big chest nothing cute really fits me.
I wish I was confident with who I was, fat or not.
I wish I would stop loosing my inspiration to loose weight.
I wish I would have listened to my mom when she said it is hard to loose weight once you have kids. (you want to know what my response was to her? it is hard no matter what. Boy was I stupid, it is way harder to loose weight when you have little ones to care for.)
I wish I wouldn't have let myself run out of Diet Dr. Pepper yesterday.
I wish I was a little bit taller (just kidding, but if you are around my age you may know that song).
Okay, my honest post is over. Thanks for listening.
Well day two of my 7 day work out challenge is done and over with! I did another 20 minutes on the treadmill tonight. I could have said I only had to do 10 or 15 minutes because I did walk some at the park today, but I decided not to count that because it really wasn't much of a work out.
While I was walking on the treadmill I was listening to my new Mandisa CD. Have you heard of her? I am so loving this CD. It is a great one to work out to because it is just so encouraging. I would highly recommend the Freedom CD. Mainly because that is the one I have ;) (I should mention that I am recommending this on my own, no one has paid me to say this stuff)
So often when it comes to weight loss I feel so down and in the dumps about where I am with it. If I slip up and eat more then I should have I get in the, what I like to call, "screw it all" mood. Which is so silly because you do more damage when you get like that and give up then if you just deal with what you ate and do better from there on out. Anyway, this song by Mandisa called Leave it in The Valley, really encouraged me. I would suggest you listen to it and then go out and support her and buy the CD because there are other songs that are really encouraging on it!
Oh man, I am mega sore from my head to my toes! I walked a mile on the treadmill last night, 23 minutes and 38 seconds! Now I know what you are thinking "why are you sore all over?", well that is a good question. The treadmill can account for the sore legs. The upper half of my body is sore because I was just obeying Mandisa when she sang "throw your hands in the air...dance, dance, dance!" I guess I did it a little too hard. :)
I got to thinking this week about doing a 7 day work out challenge. I figured that a shorter challenge is more likely to be completed. The light at the end of the tunnel is easier to see. :)
So who is with me? Would you like to do this 7 day work out challenge with me? I challenge you (and me) to at least 20 minutes of exercise a day. This could be any form that you choose as long as it is at least 20 minutes long. I will start tomorrow, Wednesday November 30th. I will keep you updated on how I do. I would love to have you join me!
I lost 6/10 of a pound this week! It may not be much but seeing how it included Thanksgiving, I think that is pretty good! I want to make sure I keep up the working out. I walked on the treadmill yesterday and will plan on doing it again today.
I just want to say that I couldn't be doing this with out my husband. He is such a huge support and doesn't mind if I walk on the treadmill right when he gets home from work. Not that I do that everyday, but yesterday before weigh in I wanted to get a walk in and he didn't mind at all. I sure am blessed to have such a supportive husband!
I gained this week :( But you know I am okay with it. I had several things working against me. First, I am a woman and you know what that means once a month. Second, cookie exchange - enough said. Third, I was sick off and on through out the week.
With all that, it is no wonder I didn't loose! However, I should have planned better regarding the cookie exchange. Also, there were times when I could have worked out but didn't.
This week, being Thanksgiving and all, I will need to really focus on working out and counting my points for everything I eat.
I hope that everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving! Remember it is a holiDAY not a holiWEEK. :)
Woo Hoo y'all, I lost 5 pounds on my first week back to weight watchers! I am so excited to be back. Now if I can just shake this respiratory thing I have going so I can work out with out coughing up a lung.