For reals...

Ok y'all I have been hesitating to write on here because it seems like when I do I end up saying I am so pumped, but then the next day I mess up and go off plan. But the last week and a half I have been counting my points!!!! Last week at weigh in I lost 4.2 pounds. It is amazing how that works. :)

I am sitting here in my house, alone (well Ian is in bed). Justin has gone to get my medicine at Walgreen's. I so desperately want to go open a bag of chocolate chips, but I must resist! I already ate more than what I should have for dinner. I justified it because of being sick (I have bronchitis). So I now need to open up my points tracker and put my points in.

One thing that I think has helped me over the last week and a half is starting my day at 4pm. Not literally, but as far as tracking my points goes. I count my dinner as breakfast, my breakfast as lunch and my lunch as dinner. I find that I enjoy my dinners a lot more and don't end up using as many of my flex points as I did before! It has been great.

Please pray for me as I get my butt into gear, for reals this time. I have a wonderful husband who said "do we need to stop paying for Weight Watchers?". When he said that I decided I need to really get serious again. I love my meetings and I know that if I had stopped going to them I would have gained more than what I did.

Wouldn't it be awesome if I could be at 65 pounds lost by the end of September? That would put me out of my plauteau!

I quit...

Yep you heard right. I quit. I am finished. I am sick and tired of seeing the scale go up. So I am no longer going to watch my weight. I am going to change my life and not beat my self up about wanting a cookie. I am going to eat the cookie.

I know what you are thinking, "what is she thinking?". Well I AM going to eat the cookie, but I am going to count the points for it! :)

I have got to get out of this funk, so I quit the funk and and am joining the rest of the world of being happy! Wish me luck, hopefully I will see you out there. ;)

New recipe

I posted a new recipe over on my other blog today. You should check it out. It is so yummy! raspberry balsamic chicken check it out!

Well I tracked all of my points yesterday! I went WAY over my daily allowed points and dipped into my weekly flex points. But at least I tracked ALL of the points I ate. I couldn't have done it with out my husbands encouragement to do so. Now I know that frozen pizza is loaded with points! Well here is to another day of tracking!!!

smart one meals...

Tracking, tracking and more tracking! I must track my points today. I have started by tracking my breakfast points already and I know exactly what I am going to have for lunch. I decided to buy a Smart Ones meal again. It has been a while since I have had one because I kind of got burnt out on them and switched to Healthy Choice, well then when I was pregnant I had a change of heart (or should I say stomach) and couldn't eat those anymore. So we will see what happens at lunch today if I like it or if I even get filled up by it!

gain, but that's ok...

So this week has been pretty hard. Ian got another tooth in which made for a lot of restless nights and days with out naps. So when I went to weigh in this week I really thought I probably gained back all the weight I had lost last week (all 1.6), but I only gained 8/10 of a pound!!! I have to admit that I was actually pretty happy with those results. I think that I get more activity in then I think I do. Especially when I go out and about with Ian. My goal is to really start tracking this week. Please pray for me as I work on this goal.

Well I lost 1.6 pounds this week! I was happy about that but at the same time I still have a few more pounds to loose to get back to my highest. My goal this week is to get in 3 of my 5 servings of fruits or vegetables each day. This was the goal our leader gave us for the week. So far today I have had one serving of blueberries! So I am well on my way. I can have a snack later today of fruit and then hopefully tonight someone will bring a veggie dish to the cook out our FLOCK is having.

FYI - My husband is so very much the best husband in the world! He got me flowers this week that had a note on them that said you are a great wife and I love you! How sweet is he? He even went to the front door and rang the door bell but I was back in our bathroom and didn't hear him :( I would have loved to see him through the peep hole holding those beautiful roses! You can see pictures of them on my other blog 9 months and beyond

Just writting my thoughts...

I'm realizing that being a stay at home mom is tough. Not because you have to be there 24/7 for the kiddos, not because you have to keep the house up and feel bad when you don't. I don't even know how to put it into words what I am trying to say. All I know is I love staying at home with Ian and I love being a wife but sometimes I miss being a working person. I think it is because I miss the relationships I had outside the home. I mean I feel like my life stopped but my work friends lifes go on together. I feel the same way about my old FLOCK (AKA Sunday School). I miss seeing them and being a part of there life. I miss being able to share in there prayer requests and there praises. Don't get me wrong I like our new FLOCK, I am just having a hard time being my self. This usually happens, it takes me a long time to be myself. I am not sure the answer to fixing this problem, but I just wanted to write about it. Sometimes I feel as though if I write things out I feel better.

ugh, big time ugh!

So I have already screwed up this week. About an hour after going on a walk on Monday I gave in to eating out of boredom. And pretty much the rest of the week has sucked. Ugh. Why can't I get back in to the grove of things? I am getting so sick of gaining and not caring. HELP!

words, more or less...

(sorry if this post seems to be chasing rabits. I was in Church yesterday and began to get ideas so I wrote down a lot of stuff and now that I have typed it out it isn't as smooth as it was in my head)

Ok, I am so tracking my points again! I know, I know. I have said this before and a week, a month or 6 months later I am back on here saying it again. But you know I guess that is why it is called a weight loss journey. It is like traveling. You have road bumps or turbulence. Well the weight loss road sometimes stops me in my tracks or often times it throws me back a few miles.

I was thinking the other day that weight loss is kind of like quitting smoking. Some may disagree, but here me out. They are both addictions that are unhealthy. When I am stressed the first place I go is the kitchen to open the fridge or pantry to see what we have to eat! When smokers are stressed they go to get a cigarette. They are both bad for you and hard to give up (overeating and smoking, not the weight loss and quitting)!

Well I am back at a point that I want to count my points again, no matter how hard. The last few weeks I have had a distraction in my life, but it is no longer there. I have to do something. I am reminded that I want to be around for my husband and children in 10, 20, 50 years. I don't want to end up on a TLC show about people who eat their way to death.

So with all that said I ask that you pray for me and with me. I would like to present my prayer to God and ask that you do the same:

Heavenly Father,
I have nothing on my own, You are my true provider. Thank you for giving me this body and life. give me Your strength to resist the things that bring medown both physically and emotionally. I ask that I be used for you. I thank you in advance for making me new! You are my Healer. I love you Lord.
Amen.