Just writting my thoughts...

I'm realizing that being a stay at home mom is tough. Not because you have to be there 24/7 for the kiddos, not because you have to keep the house up and feel bad when you don't. I don't even know how to put it into words what I am trying to say. All I know is I love staying at home with Ian and I love being a wife but sometimes I miss being a working person. I think it is because I miss the relationships I had outside the home. I mean I feel like my life stopped but my work friends lifes go on together. I feel the same way about my old FLOCK (AKA Sunday School). I miss seeing them and being a part of there life. I miss being able to share in there prayer requests and there praises. Don't get me wrong I like our new FLOCK, I am just having a hard time being my self. This usually happens, it takes me a long time to be myself. I am not sure the answer to fixing this problem, but I just wanted to write about it. Sometimes I feel as though if I write things out I feel better.