Okay y'all, this weeks needs to be kick butt week! I need to really kick it into gear. Who's with me? Who can I count on to help me stay on this journey? Any one? Any one? Bueller? Bueller? :)
For reals though I want to get to counting points and to working out everyday. So I want to do another 7 day work out challenge. Do you want to join me in this?
Do you ever read in articles or see on blogs things that say "weight doesn't define who you are"? I want to be honest, I hate that saying. Because honestly I feel like weight does define who I am. I am fat, plane and simple. If I were skinny I would want that to be something that defined who I was too.
I have been thinking this week about my weight loss journey and I feel as though I will never get to my goal. I am always planning and saying "when I get to my goal weight I will..." but honestly I don't even see the road that leads to the tunnel where the light is supposed to be at the end of. I wish I could be a pretty fat person. I'm not saying I'm ugly, I just see other people that are over weight and they have these amazingly cute clothes that look great on them, but since I have such a big chest nothing cute really fits me.
I wish I was confident with who I was, fat or not.
I wish I would stop loosing my inspiration to loose weight.
I wish I would have listened to my mom when she said it is hard to loose weight once you have kids. (you want to know what my response was to her? it is hard no matter what. Boy was I stupid, it is way harder to loose weight when you have little ones to care for.)
I wish I wouldn't have let myself run out of Diet Dr. Pepper yesterday.
I wish I was a little bit taller (just kidding, but if you are around my age you may know that song).
Okay, my honest post is over. Thanks for listening.
Well day two of my 7 day work out challenge is done and over with! I did another 20 minutes on the treadmill tonight. I could have said I only had to do 10 or 15 minutes because I did walk some at the park today, but I decided not to count that because it really wasn't much of a work out.
While I was walking on the treadmill I was listening to my new Mandisa CD. Have you heard of her? I am so loving this CD. It is a great one to work out to because it is just so encouraging. I would highly recommend the Freedom CD. Mainly because that is the one I have ;) (I should mention that I am recommending this on my own, no one has paid me to say this stuff)
So often when it comes to weight loss I feel so down and in the dumps about where I am with it. If I slip up and eat more then I should have I get in the, what I like to call, "screw it all" mood. Which is so silly because you do more damage when you get like that and give up then if you just deal with what you ate and do better from there on out. Anyway, this song by Mandisa called Leave it in The Valley, really encouraged me. I would suggest you listen to it and then go out and support her and buy the CD because there are other songs that are really encouraging on it!
Oh man, I am mega sore from my head to my toes! I walked a mile on the treadmill last night, 23 minutes and 38 seconds! Now I know what you are thinking "why are you sore all over?", well that is a good question. The treadmill can account for the sore legs. The upper half of my body is sore because I was just obeying Mandisa when she sang "throw your hands in the air...dance, dance, dance!" I guess I did it a little too hard. :)
