The all awaited... : )

Hmmm...

Well I gained 6/10 of a pound this week. I wasn't too surprised since I ate myself sick on Dove Chocolates on Wednesday. But the silver lining is that it wasn't 3 pounds, so this shouldn't take me two weeks to get past! Plus being sick on Thursday (dang chocolate), I didn't eat much until dinner so my body probably wasn't burning to much since it had nothing to fuel it. (I hope that made sense, because I know what I am trying to say, but can't really put it into words).

I did DDR again this morning! It was great. It gets me going and I feel really good after doing it. Please pray that I will continue to do this during the week if not just to get me up and awake (I hate mornings, hmm, let me rephrase that, I hate waking up, mornings are ok). : )

Also, please pray that I can take a good after picture. I keep trying and since I am my worst critic (that's what my husband says) I tend to think they all still look bad. I really want to post one, especially since so many have asked for it.

Too much of a good thing...

So I did something totally new this morning, I danced before getting ready! It was 4 songs, about 6 minutes long. It was worth 1 activity point! I don’t know what inspired me to do that, but I still had time to get ready and be on time for work. I don’t know if I will do this again, but it was kind of fun. Not as fun as when Justin is there with me though.

I weigh in tonight and I am not sure that it will be a good turn out. But I have learned that my stomach can no longer take a lot of chocolate! I had a lot of chocolate yesterday and 4 pieces this morning (which I did count by the way, well today’s I counted). So I may weigh more, but it is good to know that my stomach has changed its mind on what it can handle! (Yes my stomach does have a mind of its own). I honestly didn’t think that would happen. Not that my desire for having chocolate will go away, ever, but how much I eat will change. So that is good!

Chocolate...enough said!!!

I am in such a great mood today! I really feel like I can get back on track, even if the scales go up tomorrow!!! It is amazing what a piece of Dove Chocolate and a good doctor’s appointment can do for your attitude. Plus, inside the Dove Chocolate it has a little message for you and mine today said ‘Sing along with the elevator music’! That is so me! I am so going to sing in the elevator the next time I am in one that has music, even if it is classical. Have a great day everyone. Thanks for your prayers, keep them coming.

FYI

Healthy Choice pizza's aren't very good!

Hungry like a wolf...

I wish my hunger would go away today! It just seems that no matter what I eat today I am hungry five minutes later. So far today I have had 12.5 points! I try to limit my morning points to 10, and even then I try and stay below 10! I have had oatmeal, fiber one bar, pretzels, broccoli and cheddar, pudding. Why am I still hungry? I can honestly say it is not because I need more fiber in my diet. Now, while writing this I can’t think of anything but what sounds good for lunch. The bad thing is that I am going to eat what I brought, either a Healthy Choice steamer or a Healthy Choice pizza. HMM, but what sounds better perhaps the Charleston’s that someone offered? When they came by my office I just told them not to even ask me because I didn’t need to get anything from there. She said, not even a salad? And I was thinking, yeah a salad would be ok, but what I would end up ordering would be a prime rib sandwich with French fries and ranch dressing! My mouth is literally watering.

Last night Justin and I did a 7 song work out on our DDR. 7 songs with like a 2 second break in-between each song. How crazy is that. I was beat by the end. Lately we have just been doing a 4 song work out and then taking a break and doing it again. It is amazing how much that break helps out! I couldn’t do another one after not having a break. I guess we will just have to work our way up to it. Although, Justin could probably go and go for a long time after me!

I just had a thought that maybe the reason I am so hungry today is because I have actually been working pretty hard this morning. Well up until the point that I started typing my blog ; )

not much to say

Well I don't really have much to say today. I had cheese fries for lunch, which was stupid since I remembered to bring my lunches today! Oh well, I will start fresh tomorrow. I did walk for about ten minutes after lunch. It is hard to he motivated when you have a headache, which I do. But if I want to be at 6o pounds by December 31st I need to get with it! So, keep praying for me because lately it seems that I need that more than anything!

Surprise again!!!

I lost 1.2 pounds! This brings my new high to 41.8 pounds lost!!!!!!!!!

My day is getting better...

Ah yes, One hour and thirty minutes until I weigh in! I don’t think I lost this week, which is really annoying, since I have tried hard this week. I didn’t accomplish exercising everyday this week. Which is ok, as one of my friends pointed out I don’t want to get burnt out and then give up all together. (Thanks to Rebecca for that encouragement).

My day has turned out better than I thought it was going to this morning. I have a wonderful husband who let me cry to him via email and pour out my heart even though he was at work. I love him for that (ok, not only for that, but it is on the list of reasons I love him) : )

I will let you all know how weight in turns out, good or bad.

If you are in a good mood, don't read this...

Do you ever just feel like you can’t do it anymore? This is how I feel this morning. I did not want to get out of bed, I do not want to exercise, and I do not want to keep track of points and I REALLY don’t want to have to work right now. I just wish that I could be someone else for one day (with the exception of changing husbands, because I want to keep my Justin all for myself). You know someone who is skinny and doesn’t have to worry about gaining weight; someone who has everything handed to them on a silver platter.

WAKE UP!!!!! I know that this will never happen, but can’t I dream a little bit? I hate it when you are laying your head down at work (usually only do that if I have a headache) and someone will walk by and say “wake up Jessica”, like I don’t know that I am work. There is a reason I lay my head down people! Well that is how I feel today in a metaphorical sense. I want to just dream that I can be that skinny, rich girl and I would prefer it if no one says “that’s not going to happen.”

Well I have lot's to do and so I will put a smile back on and pretend that I am in a good mood. Maybe I can fake it until I make it. I am sorry this entry is such a downer today. I just, well I don’t know. I hope that someone out there is having a good day, because I sure have to fake it here at work.