Rest, I need rest!

I am so tired. All that I ask today is that you pray that I can sleep tonight. I mean right when I lay down fall asleep feel rested when I wake up kind of sleep!

Monday, Monday (da da, da da da)

I have been very busy at work today. This is good, because it makes the day go by faster!

I gave in and had a Dr. Pepper today, I should have asked God for strength to not have one, but for some reason I didn’t, I just had one and didn’t think twice. Well ok, I guess I did think twice because after a few sips I thought to myself “God is my source, food is a gift” (I have this posted in my office). Then I thought, DUH! Why did I have this Dr. Pepper? I did count the points for it, so that was good. Last week I barley counted any points!

Tonight I am going to do DDR and use weights at the same time! Not dangerously big weights, just small 2 pounders! Justin used to do this but hasn’t in a while. So I will have to use his weights.

I guess that is all for know. Please pray that I get some good sleep tonight as I did not sleep well last night! I was up until about 2 am! When I am tired I tend to make poor choices with my weight watchers.

POPs

We had fun tonight at POPs!  Here are a few pictures!!!

Date night!

I have a date tonight with my husband! We are going to Pops in Arcadia, OK. They have over 500 different soda flavors! I am so excited.

Minor set back…

So I gained this week. I was kind of expecting that though. I didn’t do very well this week. Plus I was sore all week from the lunges, so Justin and I didn’t do DDR at all this week. I am sure that played a part in it. I did however still walk this week during my lunch break, so I guess that is one positive thing that came out of this. Well this means I need to loose 16.2 pounds before December 31^st in order to reach my goal of 60 pounds by December 31^st.

Lunges...

Lunges are a lot of work. I don’t know that I have every really been as sore as I am today! My co-worker, Kacy, and I walked yesterday and at one point we decided to do lunges down the long side of the hallway. The sad thing is that we only did it for 1 hallways length. I woke up this morning so sore, I didn’t think I was going to be able to get out of bed! Then today at lunch I walked for 20 minutes, which is what I normally do, but today I was extra sore after walking. I have had to take some Ibuprofen!!! Let’s pray it pays off tomorrow when I weigh in.

So there are now 3 other ladies on my floor at work that have joined Weight Watchers! The two that joined a week ago both lost 4 pounds! This is the other one’s first week we will have to see how that goes! We are thinking that if we can get 15 people in the building that would want to do weight watchers then we could have a meeting in the building! That would rock!!!

I guess I have been tagged!

Jobs I've had:

1) 2 weeks at SNU in the Cafeteria
2) Children’s intern at PCBC
3) Cashier at Sweete Memories Bakery
4) Data entry at Baptist Messenger
5) Sales associate at Beauty Co
6) Sales associate at Stage, Kohle’s (sp?), and LifeWay Chirstian Store
7) Clerical at Family Medical Supply
8) Assistant Office Manager of AccuHealth Sleep Disorders Center

Places I've Lived:

1) Edmond, Oklahoma (born here)
2) Lakewood, CO
3) Richardson, TX
4) Arvada, CO
5) Nebraska (I am at a blank as to the name of the town!)
6) Lakewood, CO (yes again)
7) Rifle, CO
8) Bethany, OK
9) Weatherford, OK
10) Edmond, OK

Places I'd Rather Be (in no particular order):

1) anywhere but work! (I have a great job, but who wouldn’t want to be somewhere else)
2) Ballroom dancing!!!
3) with Justin
4) Hanging with my family/friends

Foods I Love:

1) Dark Chocolate
2) Mexican
3) Pizza
4) Lasagna

TV Shows I Love:

1) Re-Runs of Friends
2) Food Network
3) HGTV
4) Bones
5) Chuck
6) Office
7) Journeyman
8) Disney Channel (seriously, I love Hanna Montana!)
9) Ok, I have more, but it would show that I watch way too much TV!

Movies I Love:

1) Romantic Comedies
2) X-Men movies
4) Disney Movies (recently the Meet The Robinsons animation!)
5) Musicals (I love the Newsies, Hairspray)

Falling...off...wagon...

Dang it!  I hate it when I am bored.  Today I totally fell of my good job wagon.  I had nothing else to do so I ate.  I haven't done that in a while (well except for the chocolate break down).  Well my wonderful husband got me back on track and we did about 20 minutes of DDR.  So then I felt better.  I was disappointed in myself.  I didn't want to let Justin down and I didn't want to let myself down.  Thankfully I have a wonderful husband who loves me no matter what.  So, now that I had a bad choice day, I am ready to get back on the wagon and move closer to my 60 pound mark!

Holy Cow!!!

First things first...I lost 4.8 pounds this week!!! Yeah! That puts me at having lost 46.6 pounds! That leaves 13.4 pounds to loose before Decemeber 31st!!! I am so pumped!!!

So I mentioned earlier today that I wanted to share some of the inspirations I am reading in this book called "Balance That Works When Life Doesn't", by Susie Larson. So I am going to just quote straight from the book:

The road back to health isn't an unattainable one; it just requires that we face the current that swirls about us, jump in right where we are, and determine to stand on what we know to be true. We can do this.

God is our Source - food is a gift. when we look to food as our source, we fall out of balance.

(This was under a heading called TRY THIS) Tell yourself daily, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am getting stronger and healthier every day!"

We cannot compare ourselves to who we were years ago, nor can we compare ourselves to others. Those kinds of evaluations produce no good results.

And finally a prayer that I have made my own:
Dear Father in Heaven,
I don't want to make my body an idol where it becomes my obsession and focus. I want to make such good choices that I will no longer be distracted by my health. I want my health to serve me so I can better serve You. Amen.

I hope that these words can encourage some of you that read this, well I hope that it encourages all of you! Thank you for your prayers and encouraging words.

I am feeling good...

Today is weigh in day and I feel pretty confident that I have lost at least a little bit (actually I am confident that I have lost more than a little bit, but I don’t want to officially say that, hence the parentheses, I don’t want to curse it!). Justin and I have really worked hard this week, between walking, DDR and keeping track of my points I think it will be a great turn out! You may be wondering why I say "Justin and I have worked hard" and well it is because he truly has to do this with me. He told me last night he is proud of how I am doing with Weight Watchers. I told him that I couldn't have done any of this with out him. He thinks that I under estimate my ability to do this. I will tell you what I think, that even if he was only 1% responsible for the weight loss that has been achieved, then I could not do it with out his 1%! My 99% is not complete until he is there helping me. I love him so much. Ok, enough love talk ; )

I have lots that I want to share from this book that the ladies in my FLOCK are reading. The book is called Balance That Works When Life Doesn’t, By Susie Larson. It talks about the balance of life both in the Physical aspect and the Spiritual aspect. Right now I don’t have time to share all that I am learning, but perhaps tonight I will remember to do that!

Walking, lots of walking! (revised at 12:48)

This weekend Justin and I did lots of walking! We went and visited OSU in Stillwater, so he could show me around where he went to school and everything. That was lots of fun, plus we walked about 2.5 miles! Then on Sunday we went with our FLOCK from church to the Oklahoma Centennial parade. That was fun as well, plus we got in a little under 2 miles. Needless to say, I am ready to get back to DDR. I like the walking, but man I am worn out! Good activity points though.

This week I am really going to kick it into gear. I need to get to my 60 pounds by December 31st. So keep the prayers and encouraging comments coming, because I am going to need them!

I wore my trunk jeans (see entry below titled 'Cool story') to church on Sunday! It was great I felt pretty good about myself. Others made comments, saying that I looked nice. It was a great feeling.

Good news and bad news! This has not happened in the entire time that I have done weight watchers…I did not gain, wait though, I also did not loose. I stayed the same. This is better then gaining, I suppose. This just means that I really do need to step it up! I want to have lost next week! I really want to reach my goal of 60 pounds by December 31^st.

Oh, and FYI, I stole a T-Shirt out of Justin's side of the closet today, it's an XL!

Think thin...

So today is weigh in day and I really just want it to be over. I don’t know if I did good or not. I have done good on some days, but to be honest with you bad on most of the days. I feel like I am at a plateau right now. I know that I will need to just step it up with the exercise and make sure I am keeping track of ALL my points. I tend to not track my points in the evening. I also need to make sure and get more fish, veggies and fruit in my diet. I am for sure getting more than when I started, but that won’t cut it. I need to get more servings in.

I went to my primary care doctor yesterday and he was really proud of me with all the weight I have lost. It was good to here him say that because it is something I have struggled with since I have gone to him. Plus, it is always nice when he notices rather than me pointing it out to him. :-)

Truth! You can't handle the truth! (or perhaps I can't)...

I recently had a friend use the term "sit in a pile of self pity". I realized tonight, while trying to go to sleep, that I often do this. And what for? Perhaps I feel sorry for the fact that I have a wonderful husband who loves and provides for me, or maybe it is because of the nice house we live in, perhaps the fact that I have a job, a loving family (both mine and Justin's), a car, clothes on my back and food on the table (well TV tray in my case)! I could go on and on. So really why do I often find myself sitting in a big pile of pity? Well I decided tonight that I will no longer! I vow that from now on when I begin to look for this pile of pity (because I know it is not something given to me), I will remind myself of the many blessings that God has given me. If I continue down what can only be called the road of unthankfulness, I will then get on my knees and ask for God's intervention. He is the only way out.

I gave in...

I gave in to the call of chocolate! I shouldn't have, but I did. All you ladies out there know that when it is a certain time of the month you tend to eat more of everything than you usually would. Well that is going to be my excuse for today anyways. I will stop now though, because I don't want to feel that since I blew part of my day I can give up the rest of my day too! God is faithful and will provide the way of escape!!!

Isn't he amazing...

My wonderful husband, Justin, is well, so wonderful! At first I was going to title this entry “has nothing to do with weight” but then I decided that really it does. You see my wonderful husband left me a note in the garage yesterday so I would see it when I got home. He attached some cute frog stickers with it! It is that kind of encouragement that helps me continue on with this life long journey of loosing and eventually maintaining my weight. He is constantly filling my “love tank” ; ) (for those of you who haven’t read the “Five Love Languages” you should really invest, even if you aren’t married it is a great lesson to learn).

So today I am wearing not only an XL scrub top, but XL scrub pants! When I started out on this journey I was wearing a 3X top and 3X pants, and I think I was pushing on 4X. I think I am currently in the transition stage between 2X and XL because I fit more comfortably in the 2X, but more happily in the XL! If that even makes sense.

It is amazing how God will turn an opportunity to help a friend into an opportunity to help you. Yesterday my friend and I decided that at 8:15 we would work out. Now she lives in Moore, OK and I live in Edmond, OK so we weren’t going to meet up, but rather keep each other accountable for the work out. My first thought was that it would be easy because it is around that time that Justin and I usually do DDR anyway, so no problemo right? WRONG! Justin was super tired and so he decided to take a nap for a little bit, which left me on my own for working out. If I hadn’t made that arrangement with my friend I wouldn’t have danced at all.

Cool Story

So the past couple of weeks I have been in need of some new jeans. Justin and I looked at a few different places, but either couldn't find any in my size or we both felt like it was too much money to spend for something I would just wear for hopefully a few months! So today I remembered that I have this pair of jeans in my trunk that has probably been in there for oh, about 4 years or so. I have kept it so long because at one point it was my favorite pair of jeans and I wanted to fit in them again. So today I had the notion to pull them out of my trunk and try them on. I honestly was not thinking I would be able to zip and button them up BUT I not only was able to pull them up I was able to zip and button them too!!! How cool it that! I am so excited. God just keeps providing clothes for me, He is so awesome!!!

Weigh in results...

So the results are in and (drum roll please) I lost, 6/10 of a pound!!! So know I am back at my highest of having lost 41.8 pounds!!! I was of course hoping to loose more, but like I have said in a previous entry, as long as I loose anything I will have meet my weekly goal.

So the Bible verse that my wonderful husband posted to me the other day has really come in handy. I printed it out and posted it on my desk. I started to think that sometimes I feel like I have no other choice but to eat out at lunch, even though I have something to eat in the freezer. Then I read that verse again, “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is Faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation He will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” (1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV) Ok, so I think my “way of escape” is, hmm, perhaps the lunch that I already have! It is sad that it has taken me this long to figure that out.

Another good think that has happened is I tried on a pair of scrub pants and top that are a size below what I currently wear. I feel it won’t be long before I can comfortably wear them! Actually, I can probably already wear them, just not to the desired comfort level that I would like. In other words, I don’t want to be paranoid about ripping the pants!

Well have a great weekend everyone!!! I am so excited to continue on this journey. Thank you to all who encourage me everyday! I love you all!!!

My super wonderful Husband...

I don't know if any of you read the comments that others have posted, but my husband left a great one on the "No...More...Temptations" entry. This was the Bible verse he left "No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." (1Co 10:13, ESV). What an encouragement! And to think that God WILL provide a way of escape. It was nice to be reminded of that. All right all of you Bill Green fans "God is good, all the time" "All the time, God is good"!!!

NO...MORE...TEMPTATION...

No, I can’t give in! I must be strong and remember what I am working for…my goal of having lost 147 pounds!!!

Yesterday we ordered Charleston’s for lunch because we had a meeting during our lunch. So they gave us the completely wrong order, but even though we drove back up there to get the correct order we still got to keep the wrong order. So we put it in the fridge up at work. Well now that I am starting to get hungry I really want to go and heat one of the hamburgers up. I didn’t, instead I cooked one of my broccoli and cheese snacks. I have to remember that I have to weigh in tomorrow and I don’t want the scales to go up. So at lunch I will be strong and eat my healthy choice meal, and walk after that. Tonight I plan on going to Wal-Mart and then doing yard work. Please pray that I will stick to this plan!!!

Right on the dot...

Praise God!!! I have a friend who has lost a bunch of weight and she gave me a bunch of her old scrubs that were my size! It is amazing how God provides just when you need it. Now I don’t need to worry about getting any more altered or buying new ones! That is of course until I get to yet another smaller size (which actually she had some of those that she gave me as well)!!!