The all awaited... : )

Hmmm...

Well I gained 6/10 of a pound this week. I wasn't too surprised since I ate myself sick on Dove Chocolates on Wednesday. But the silver lining is that it wasn't 3 pounds, so this shouldn't take me two weeks to get past! Plus being sick on Thursday (dang chocolate), I didn't eat much until dinner so my body probably wasn't burning to much since it had nothing to fuel it. (I hope that made sense, because I know what I am trying to say, but can't really put it into words).

I did DDR again this morning! It was great. It gets me going and I feel really good after doing it. Please pray that I will continue to do this during the week if not just to get me up and awake (I hate mornings, hmm, let me rephrase that, I hate waking up, mornings are ok). : )

Also, please pray that I can take a good after picture. I keep trying and since I am my worst critic (that's what my husband says) I tend to think they all still look bad. I really want to post one, especially since so many have asked for it.

Too much of a good thing...

So I did something totally new this morning, I danced before getting ready! It was 4 songs, about 6 minutes long. It was worth 1 activity point! I don’t know what inspired me to do that, but I still had time to get ready and be on time for work. I don’t know if I will do this again, but it was kind of fun. Not as fun as when Justin is there with me though.

I weigh in tonight and I am not sure that it will be a good turn out. But I have learned that my stomach can no longer take a lot of chocolate! I had a lot of chocolate yesterday and 4 pieces this morning (which I did count by the way, well today’s I counted). So I may weigh more, but it is good to know that my stomach has changed its mind on what it can handle! (Yes my stomach does have a mind of its own). I honestly didn’t think that would happen. Not that my desire for having chocolate will go away, ever, but how much I eat will change. So that is good!

Chocolate...enough said!!!

I am in such a great mood today! I really feel like I can get back on track, even if the scales go up tomorrow!!! It is amazing what a piece of Dove Chocolate and a good doctor’s appointment can do for your attitude. Plus, inside the Dove Chocolate it has a little message for you and mine today said ‘Sing along with the elevator music’! That is so me! I am so going to sing in the elevator the next time I am in one that has music, even if it is classical. Have a great day everyone. Thanks for your prayers, keep them coming.

FYI

Healthy Choice pizza's aren't very good!

Hungry like a wolf...

I wish my hunger would go away today! It just seems that no matter what I eat today I am hungry five minutes later. So far today I have had 12.5 points! I try to limit my morning points to 10, and even then I try and stay below 10! I have had oatmeal, fiber one bar, pretzels, broccoli and cheddar, pudding. Why am I still hungry? I can honestly say it is not because I need more fiber in my diet. Now, while writing this I can’t think of anything but what sounds good for lunch. The bad thing is that I am going to eat what I brought, either a Healthy Choice steamer or a Healthy Choice pizza. HMM, but what sounds better perhaps the Charleston’s that someone offered? When they came by my office I just told them not to even ask me because I didn’t need to get anything from there. She said, not even a salad? And I was thinking, yeah a salad would be ok, but what I would end up ordering would be a prime rib sandwich with French fries and ranch dressing! My mouth is literally watering.

Last night Justin and I did a 7 song work out on our DDR. 7 songs with like a 2 second break in-between each song. How crazy is that. I was beat by the end. Lately we have just been doing a 4 song work out and then taking a break and doing it again. It is amazing how much that break helps out! I couldn’t do another one after not having a break. I guess we will just have to work our way up to it. Although, Justin could probably go and go for a long time after me!

I just had a thought that maybe the reason I am so hungry today is because I have actually been working pretty hard this morning. Well up until the point that I started typing my blog ; )

not much to say

Well I don't really have much to say today. I had cheese fries for lunch, which was stupid since I remembered to bring my lunches today! Oh well, I will start fresh tomorrow. I did walk for about ten minutes after lunch. It is hard to he motivated when you have a headache, which I do. But if I want to be at 6o pounds by December 31st I need to get with it! So, keep praying for me because lately it seems that I need that more than anything!

Surprise again!!!

I lost 1.2 pounds! This brings my new high to 41.8 pounds lost!!!!!!!!!

My day is getting better...

Ah yes, One hour and thirty minutes until I weigh in! I don’t think I lost this week, which is really annoying, since I have tried hard this week. I didn’t accomplish exercising everyday this week. Which is ok, as one of my friends pointed out I don’t want to get burnt out and then give up all together. (Thanks to Rebecca for that encouragement).

My day has turned out better than I thought it was going to this morning. I have a wonderful husband who let me cry to him via email and pour out my heart even though he was at work. I love him for that (ok, not only for that, but it is on the list of reasons I love him) : )

I will let you all know how weight in turns out, good or bad.

If you are in a good mood, don't read this...

Do you ever just feel like you can’t do it anymore? This is how I feel this morning. I did not want to get out of bed, I do not want to exercise, and I do not want to keep track of points and I REALLY don’t want to have to work right now. I just wish that I could be someone else for one day (with the exception of changing husbands, because I want to keep my Justin all for myself). You know someone who is skinny and doesn’t have to worry about gaining weight; someone who has everything handed to them on a silver platter.

WAKE UP!!!!! I know that this will never happen, but can’t I dream a little bit? I hate it when you are laying your head down at work (usually only do that if I have a headache) and someone will walk by and say “wake up Jessica”, like I don’t know that I am work. There is a reason I lay my head down people! Well that is how I feel today in a metaphorical sense. I want to just dream that I can be that skinny, rich girl and I would prefer it if no one says “that’s not going to happen.”

Well I have lot's to do and so I will put a smile back on and pretend that I am in a good mood. Maybe I can fake it until I make it. I am sorry this entry is such a downer today. I just, well I don’t know. I hope that someone out there is having a good day, because I sure have to fake it here at work.

ups and downs

So today I have had some ups and downs. The up is that I ordered a salad for lunch, it wasn’t too bad. I even resisted the ranch dressing and ordered honey mustard. The downs have been laffy taffy and dove chocolates. Dang Halloween candy. Seriously! (Oh, that reminds me of Grey’s Anatomy) I didn’t walk, another down. But I had water with lunch and have been drinking my water all day, so that is a good thing (another up)! Over all I guess it has been ok. I made it to work today, which is more than I can say about yesterday!

Laffy Taffy joke of they day: What is a witches favorite subject? Spelling!!!! HA HA HA HA HA!!! Oh boy those jokes are great!!

New Clothes

So this weekend I was able to go to a consignment store here in Edmond and bought 4 new shirts! It was very exciting. I liked being able to buy clothes in a smaller size. Usually when I have gone shoping I have to buy them in bigger sizes, so this was a first !!!

I have also decided to get more serious about working out. I have been taking breaks on the weekend and not doing much, but now I have decided to go ahead and start working out 7 days a week. I think this will help me in the weight loss and possibly (eventually) in the toning area. I have a great husband who helps me with this by encouraging me and asking me if we can DDR (dance dance revolution). I love him for that. Once I master the working out 7 days a week I will master keeping track of my points 7 days a week. I tend to not keep track quite as well on the weekends as I do during the week. Baby steps, that is the best way!

Coming soon...before and after pictures that so many have requested!

I'm back baby!!!

Whoo hoo, I lost 2.6 pounds!!! I am still not back to where I was, but only .6 pounds away. I can do that in no time. I was thrilled! I am really starting to see that I can do this. With God's help of course and my supportive husband, family and friends. I never would have imagined that I could say I have lost 40.6 pounds. What a treat (sorry I have to brag a little). I mean really, that is like two of my nephews! I lost two little kids (ok, that doesn't sound too good). Let's put this in some other words, I have lost 32 cantaloups.

Ok, I've got to go. We are having some friends over tomorrow and I need to finish making the cookies. (don't worry I will count the points) : )

Dance Dance Revolution

Justin and I discovered a new thing with our Dance Dance Revolution (DDR) last night! It has a work out mode, which we actually new about but we hadn’t tried it since we first got the play station because at that time it seemed too hard. Well we have improved since then and tried it last night! I love it. It tells us how long we danced and tells us how many calories we burned. It even tells you how many miles you jogged in comparison to dancing!!! We are for sure doing that from now on.

I woke up this morning to a clean kitchen. Thanks to my wonderful husband. He is so thoughtful.

I weigh in tonight. I think it might be ok. I weigh on Thursday mornings at my house and then officially weigh at Weight Watchers on Thursday nights. So it looks like I might have lost. Keep the prayers coming though, I need it.

Bueno, no bueno

Taco Bueno is so yummy, you don't even know how hard it is to turn down. But let me just tell you that I not only turned down one person, but I turned down two people who offered to get me lunch. Only one of them was going to Taco Bueno, but still, I really didn't want to eat what I had. Although it turned out pretty good. I walked for 20 minutes and called it good then I did something stupid...I ate two cups of Special K cereal with Chocolate! Why, I wasn't really all that hungry any more, one would have been just fine. Oh well. Whats done is done. I will track it and move on.

My Dreamy Handy Man!

So I know that this has nothing to do with weight loss, but I just wanted to tell you all how wonderful my husband is. We had some electrical problems with a light switch that he fixed for us. He is such a hunky handy man!!! I thought the house was going to catch on fire, but he assured me that it wouldn't (after all he made a good grade in his intro to electrical engineering class). : )

Back on track

So I just got done with lunch and my walk. It was great. It actually felt good to walk again. This weekend I spent a lot of time sleeping, trying to make up for lost sleep earlier in the week, since I didn't DDR but once. That was my own fault though, because Justin asked me if I wanted to dance and I said no. I don't know if I will be back up to my 41.2 lost, but hopefully I will get closer to that. I still just hate that I gained 3 pounds, 1 or 2 I could have been ok with, but 3!!! Oh well, that is past me know and I need to move on, get back on track.

I have discovered a new granola bar type thing. It is called Fiber One bars. The one I tried was an oats and chocolate bar! It was so good. It is only 2 points per bar. It tasted like a candy bar almost! The bad thing is that I can't find them at Wal-Mart. My friend said that she bought them at Sam's, so she said she would pick me up some the next time she is there! So if anyone knows of another place (besides Sam's and Walgreen's) to get these bad boys, let me know.

Have a great week, I will write again soon.

It was bound to happen some time...

I gained, as I expected to, but I was not expecting it to be 3 pounds. I was thinking like 1 to 1 ½ pounds. Well I guess that is what I get for not counting my points over the holiday weekend. My encouraging husband cheered me up and took me to dinner. He is wonderful, in fact, more wonderful than I deserve this morning. I have not had much sleep and I was pretty mean to him (pretty mean to everyone actually). He didn’t seem to think much of it and was easy to forgive me when I asked. I love him so much!!!

ROCK ON!!!!

Ok, I just had a cool experience in the hall at work! A lady who works in the office next door to ours saw me in the hall and said “wow you look like you have lost a lot of weight.” I of course told her that yes I had lost 41.2 pounds and she said she could tell!!! This was exciting because she didn’t know that I was doing weight watchers, which means she wasn’t just saying it because I had told her. That was just the encouragement that I needed today.

Only 95.8 to go!!!

Only 95.8 pounds to go before I reach my goal and become a lifetime member at weight watchers (this means I get to go to meetings for free). This sounds like a lot, but I have already knocked out 41.2 pounds! And if I keep going at this rate I should reach my 60 pound mark by December 31st if not before! My leader at weight watchers said there is no reason as to why I can't be at goal by this time next year! Could you imagine...It is hard for me to imagine that. I mean Justin and I have talked about getting new clothes, but once I get to my goal I get to get real new clothes! You see I figure there is no point in buying brand new clothes if I am going to have to get new ones a few months later anyway. So we will try some consignment stores and then if I can't find anything there we will shop at Wal-Mart. That way we aren't spending too much on clothes I won't be wearing for long. Anyways, my point to all of that is it is hard to image a smaller me! I can tell right now that I have lost, but I still don't feel like I look different. (I hope that makes sense). You see, I can tell in some if not most of my clothes, but I don't feel like I look different in my waist. I can tell a difference in my face, but that is all. I can't wait to be able to see the new me, well the new body of me, I will hopefully still be me.

I avoided the vending monster again! I wasn't planning on it, I went down there with money, ready to buy some chocolate donuts, but then once I got there I realized that my dollar was to wrinkly and one of my quarters was a Canadian quarter! So I thought you know I don't need these anyway, so I resisted and came back to my office. I have to say it was kind of hard. But I am glad I resisted!

recovery

So I am trying to recover from this weekend. I don't think I did all that bad, but I know I didn't do all that good either. I had lots of fun though and that is what matters, as long as I get back on track today! Well I guess that is all for now. I hope everyone celebrated that fact that they labor! :)

my fam

So I just thought I would post a few pictures of my family. Mainly because it is 6 am and I am awake.