going private

Hello to my readers (I don't know if you actually exist, but I am writing to you anyway). I have decided to take a break from having this blog public. I am going to set it to the private setting soon. I need to just have a place for me to write what I am feeling and not have anyone else read it. Hopefully someday I will make it public again. But for now, thank you for reading. You can visit my other blog, which will remain public, to keep up with me. Not that I have been keeping up on this blog much.

For reals...

Ok y'all I have been hesitating to write on here because it seems like when I do I end up saying I am so pumped, but then the next day I mess up and go off plan. But the last week and a half I have been counting my points!!!! Last week at weigh in I lost 4.2 pounds. It is amazing how that works. :)

I am sitting here in my house, alone (well Ian is in bed). Justin has gone to get my medicine at Walgreen's. I so desperately want to go open a bag of chocolate chips, but I must resist! I already ate more than what I should have for dinner. I justified it because of being sick (I have bronchitis). So I now need to open up my points tracker and put my points in.

One thing that I think has helped me over the last week and a half is starting my day at 4pm. Not literally, but as far as tracking my points goes. I count my dinner as breakfast, my breakfast as lunch and my lunch as dinner. I find that I enjoy my dinners a lot more and don't end up using as many of my flex points as I did before! It has been great.

Please pray for me as I get my butt into gear, for reals this time. I have a wonderful husband who said "do we need to stop paying for Weight Watchers?". When he said that I decided I need to really get serious again. I love my meetings and I know that if I had stopped going to them I would have gained more than what I did.

Wouldn't it be awesome if I could be at 65 pounds lost by the end of September? That would put me out of my plauteau!

I quit...

Yep you heard right. I quit. I am finished. I am sick and tired of seeing the scale go up. So I am no longer going to watch my weight. I am going to change my life and not beat my self up about wanting a cookie. I am going to eat the cookie.

I know what you are thinking, "what is she thinking?". Well I AM going to eat the cookie, but I am going to count the points for it! :)

I have got to get out of this funk, so I quit the funk and and am joining the rest of the world of being happy! Wish me luck, hopefully I will see you out there. ;)

New recipe

I posted a new recipe over on my other blog today. You should check it out. It is so yummy! raspberry balsamic chicken check it out!

Well I tracked all of my points yesterday! I went WAY over my daily allowed points and dipped into my weekly flex points. But at least I tracked ALL of the points I ate. I couldn't have done it with out my husbands encouragement to do so. Now I know that frozen pizza is loaded with points! Well here is to another day of tracking!!!

smart one meals...

Tracking, tracking and more tracking! I must track my points today. I have started by tracking my breakfast points already and I know exactly what I am going to have for lunch. I decided to buy a Smart Ones meal again. It has been a while since I have had one because I kind of got burnt out on them and switched to Healthy Choice, well then when I was pregnant I had a change of heart (or should I say stomach) and couldn't eat those anymore. So we will see what happens at lunch today if I like it or if I even get filled up by it!

gain, but that's ok...

So this week has been pretty hard. Ian got another tooth in which made for a lot of restless nights and days with out naps. So when I went to weigh in this week I really thought I probably gained back all the weight I had lost last week (all 1.6), but I only gained 8/10 of a pound!!! I have to admit that I was actually pretty happy with those results. I think that I get more activity in then I think I do. Especially when I go out and about with Ian. My goal is to really start tracking this week. Please pray for me as I work on this goal.

Well I lost 1.6 pounds this week! I was happy about that but at the same time I still have a few more pounds to loose to get back to my highest. My goal this week is to get in 3 of my 5 servings of fruits or vegetables each day. This was the goal our leader gave us for the week. So far today I have had one serving of blueberries! So I am well on my way. I can have a snack later today of fruit and then hopefully tonight someone will bring a veggie dish to the cook out our FLOCK is having.

FYI - My husband is so very much the best husband in the world! He got me flowers this week that had a note on them that said you are a great wife and I love you! How sweet is he? He even went to the front door and rang the door bell but I was back in our bathroom and didn't hear him :( I would have loved to see him through the peep hole holding those beautiful roses! You can see pictures of them on my other blog 9 months and beyond

Just writting my thoughts...

I'm realizing that being a stay at home mom is tough. Not because you have to be there 24/7 for the kiddos, not because you have to keep the house up and feel bad when you don't. I don't even know how to put it into words what I am trying to say. All I know is I love staying at home with Ian and I love being a wife but sometimes I miss being a working person. I think it is because I miss the relationships I had outside the home. I mean I feel like my life stopped but my work friends lifes go on together. I feel the same way about my old FLOCK (AKA Sunday School). I miss seeing them and being a part of there life. I miss being able to share in there prayer requests and there praises. Don't get me wrong I like our new FLOCK, I am just having a hard time being my self. This usually happens, it takes me a long time to be myself. I am not sure the answer to fixing this problem, but I just wanted to write about it. Sometimes I feel as though if I write things out I feel better.

ugh, big time ugh!

So I have already screwed up this week. About an hour after going on a walk on Monday I gave in to eating out of boredom. And pretty much the rest of the week has sucked. Ugh. Why can't I get back in to the grove of things? I am getting so sick of gaining and not caring. HELP!

words, more or less...

(sorry if this post seems to be chasing rabits. I was in Church yesterday and began to get ideas so I wrote down a lot of stuff and now that I have typed it out it isn't as smooth as it was in my head)

Ok, I am so tracking my points again! I know, I know. I have said this before and a week, a month or 6 months later I am back on here saying it again. But you know I guess that is why it is called a weight loss journey. It is like traveling. You have road bumps or turbulence. Well the weight loss road sometimes stops me in my tracks or often times it throws me back a few miles.

I was thinking the other day that weight loss is kind of like quitting smoking. Some may disagree, but here me out. They are both addictions that are unhealthy. When I am stressed the first place I go is the kitchen to open the fridge or pantry to see what we have to eat! When smokers are stressed they go to get a cigarette. They are both bad for you and hard to give up (overeating and smoking, not the weight loss and quitting)!

Well I am back at a point that I want to count my points again, no matter how hard. The last few weeks I have had a distraction in my life, but it is no longer there. I have to do something. I am reminded that I want to be around for my husband and children in 10, 20, 50 years. I don't want to end up on a TLC show about people who eat their way to death.

So with all that said I ask that you pray for me and with me. I would like to present my prayer to God and ask that you do the same:

Heavenly Father,
I have nothing on my own, You are my true provider. Thank you for giving me this body and life. give me Your strength to resist the things that bring medown both physically and emotionally. I ask that I be used for you. I thank you in advance for making me new! You are my Healer. I love you Lord.
Amen.

lots to say but no words

I have so much on my mind right now but can't seem to get it into words. Has anyone out there ever experienced that? Any tips on how to get my feelings and thoughts into words?

gain, ugh

Well I gained this week. I wasn't too surprised, although I must say I was glad it was only 2.6 pounds. I thought it may end up being around 4 pounds. I haven't been doing so well on counting my points or working out. Tonight at the meeting they said to be prepared for the unexpected. I think I have issues with that. I get thrown off one day and it throws me off for at least a few days. It seems that this time it has thrown me off for at least 4 weeks. I can't pin point the time or day that I was thrown off, but I am sure it was something unexpected.

I have just been down lately, tired, not wanting to do much of anything. I want so badly to just get back into things. I hate feeling this way. Ugh!!!!!!! It is like, I know what I have to do to loose weight, but I just don't care to do it. I wish I could just wake up skinny! (oh don't we all?)

Well I guess that is my vent for today. Keep me in your prayers as I try to work my feeling out and get back on track.

weigh in 6-17

I weighed in today and lost 2/10 of a pound. Of course when I got back to the car I realized that I had not gone to the bathroom before weighing, ugh. You know every little bit helps :) I am going to go to the meeting tomorrow night because Ian was asleep and I wanted to get back home to put him to bed.

long time no post...

Um, can it be true that I haven't posted anything on here since May 27th? Man I am behind. So I will just update you a little bit...

gained, lost, gained, lost, gained and lost again. :) That pretty much sums up my weight loss I am still going through this rough patch. I have days where I want to track my points and days that I don't want to track my points, days that I don't want to but do it any way. I am kind of back to a place of not caring. I hate being in this place.

One good thing is that I only gained 1 pound while on vacation! Then the week after I lost 1.2 so that was good! I am really going to try and walk more since it is nice weather again. The constant rain kind of got me out of the habit of walking during the day.

OK, I guess that is all. I will do my best to post again soon. I will be weighing in on Wednesday this week but still going to the Thursday meeting for moral support. You've got to love those meetings!

Blueberries and Milk...

Yep, blueberries and milk work for me! I love to add them both in my oatmeal in the mornings. It not only tastes yummy, but I can get in part of my milk serving and a whole fruit serving! It tastes delish. And this morning I added a little too much milk so it was more soupy, however it ended up tasting like a desert, so I was happy. And I got a full milk serving in! Yay!

What works for you? For more WFMW visit We Are THAT Family.

Little black dress

Ok, I must say I was very excited about Mother's Day. Not just because it was my first time to celebrate with Ian in my arms, but because I had my first of many "little black dresses"! It is a size 18, which when I started Weight Watchers I was nearly a size 26. Yep you read right a size 26! So needless to say I was thrilled when a size 18 dress fit me so nicely!

I will admit I felt pretty good wearing this dress. The pictures cannot capture how I felt. But I will post some anyway. I also paired the dress with a pashmina (not sure if I am spelling that right) that my friend Paula brought me from New York! So fancy, right?

Again!

We had a loss again this week! When I say we I mean WE. You all are such a great encouragement to me. I love going places and having people notice that I have lost! Plus, the encouragement that I get from my wonderful husband is a must have. I wouldn't be where I am if it weren't for him. I love you Justin!

So my grand total is now 62.4 pounds lost! This is the highest I had been at before getting pregnant with Ian, so hopefully next week I can beat that! How great would that be? Either way I am so thankful for being where I am today. God has truly blessed me with people, things and just his all around awesome power. I love you God!

Throw your hands in the air...

Praise God from whom all blessings flow! I lost! I lost 6.2 pounds this week! I was so excited. Yep notice the new number to your right...61.2 pounds lost! I am just so excited! I can't wait to continue doing this weight loss stuff. ;) I know that this big of a loss will be unusual, but any loss has been unusual lately for me, so I am thrilled to have lost at all let alone this much. Yippee!

I am hopefully going to get to go on a walk today. It may be a little cooler than normal, but it isn't raining yet!

Continue to pray for me as I am on this journey! There is nothing like the power of prayer!

writing to help me not eat...

Oh boy am I just wanting to eat tonight! I was about to go get another WW cake, which in and of it self is not so bad, but when you eat an entire box that adds up. I am not at that point yet. I have only had two today. As I was about to get up I remembered that I would have to track it. (bite it write it) I decided to get on to my blog, like I used to do when I got this way. Writing seems to help my desire to eat go away. I don't know what it is, but hey what ever works, right?

I am currently watching Sabrina, the re-make. I have not ever seen the original one. Ian is playing on the floor and Justin doesn't feel good so he is in bed. I am looking forward to Ian going to sleep so I can finish up some invitations for a baby shower I am throwing.

Ok, I think my writing has helped and my desire to eat is gone. I am now off to get some water. Pray for me that I will stay with in my points tomorrow. I have gone over today. :(

Mad but not discouraged...

So I gained this week. :( I was so frustrated at first. Since Thursday I have calmed down though. I promised my weight watchers leader that I would email her my tracker. This has helped me actually track all of my points. And I mean all of them, including my Braums from Friday night. I also realized I should not eat as much popcorn as I have been eating. Evidentaly the salt in it can cause you to gain weight. I was seriously eating it everyday, sometimes twice a day!

I am a little frustrated at the weather predictions this week. It looks like rain all week! I have been doing so good with walking outside. Grrr, arrgg. This means I may not have the help of my friends to keep me accountable with my work outs. (Justin the pressure is on)

Read the poem from the previous post. It is very good! I just keep thinking "If you bite it write it!"

Don't quit

A friend of mine emailed this to me. I hope it inspires you as it did me...

DON'T QUIT

When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down
And you feel like the biggest failure in town;
When you want to give up just because you gave in
And forget all about being healthy and thin;
So What! You went over your points a bit;
It's your next move that counts....So don't you quit!

It's a moment of truth, It's an attitude change;
It's learning the skills to get back in your range;
It's telling yourself "You've done great up till now;
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal;
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.

To stumble and fall is not a disgrace
If you summon the will to get back in the race;
But, often the strugglers when losing their grip
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip
And learn too late when the damage is done
That the race wasn't over and they still could of won.

Life-style change can be awkward and slow
But facing each challenge will help you to grow;
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint in the cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit;
If you bite it you write it.....BUT DON'T YOU QUIT!

Oh me, oh my!

Weight watchers is challenging all its members to do a 5K! I am so excited. They are providing all the tools for the training and if we complete the 5K then we get some free stuff from them! I was made our team captain yesterday at the meeting. I think this will help me stay motivated with exercising! I got out and walked yesterday with Ian on my back and AJ in the stroller! We only walked for about 13 minutes, but it was nice. The bad thing is that today it is raining. :( I do have a walking DVD though from WW so I think, scratch that, I KNOW I will do it today! I feel so pumped now.

I actually lost this week! Yay for that. Just what I needed to get started on this 5K. I want to be at 75 pounds lost (total, not in addition to what I have already lost) by the time our family goes to Florida (that would be May 30). I think that this is possible. I had previously made that same goal and that has come and gone already. But now I am on a new mission. I have been cooking dinner at home the past two weeks, which not only saves us money but also helps me stay on track.

I CAN
I WILL
I WANT TO!

so much to say so little time to say it!

I am feeling so pumped, but alas I need to go clean bottles, so I will write more tomorrow! I can't wait to share with you guys!

I'm a looser!

Praise God! I lost yesterday! I guess this whole tracking thing does work ;) Just kidding, I know it works and I am so thankful that I was able to loose. I am now going to start tracking everything, yup, everything! Today for breakfast I gave in and had a piece of left over pizza, but I tracked it. Turns out it was only 4 points. Tonight Justin and I are going on a date to Outback Steakhouse and then to see Edmond Santa Fe's production of Guys and Dolls! So for dinner I am going to try out this new thing that WW has called set points. Meaning you can eat what ever size portion you want and it has a set number of points. Wish me luck, better yet pray for me! Prayer is always better than luck. ;)

Something we talked about at our meeting this week was stress eating. If we would have had more time I would have asked this question: How do you get away from eating unhealthy choices when you are stressed? Because while they say "it doesn't make you feel better", I must be honest it makes me feel better. So how in the world am I supposed to get past this? Any tips would be great!

Menu planning, brought to you by www.kraftfoods.com

I have been on a search over the past few weeks for a good menu plan. When I say good I mean food that Justin and I would actually eat. :) Most of the time the menu's I see have stuff that we just wouldn't eat or I don't know how to fix. I have recently found that www.kraftfoods.com has a menu planner. They plan 5 days of food and make a grocery list for you to print out. Not only that but the nutritional info is on each of the recipes so I can figure out the points! I can't wait to get started. Oh and it is all FREE!!!

next step...

So I have done an entire week of tracking my morning points! Yes I had a day or two where I messed up, but I got back on the next day. Now this week my goal is to track my morning and afternoon points. This is going to be harder, but I know I can do it for "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

Today I already resisted a cookie (this was not easy, seriously see how cute and yummy they look here). But I figured it will still be here for me tonight.

Last night at my weigh in I gained 4/10 of a pound. Which considering the week before I gained 2.8 pounds, I was pleased with the 4/10. I think I will be able to see a difference once I am tracking everything. Although really I saw a difference with just tracking the mornings, just not the difference that I want to see right now.

Are you trying to loose weight? Do you have a weight loss blog? Share your story with me. I would love to be able to read encouraging stories or be able to encourage you! Thanks for stopping by.

Baby steps

Back to square one. I am having the hardest time getting into weight watchers. I haven't counted my points in forever. So I am going to take baby steps, you know like in What About Bob. So for the next few days I will count everything prior to lunch. This doesn't give me the excuse to eat bad after lunch and beyond, but it will help me get into the counting of the points. So this morning I counted my breakfast. I already forgot about my deal and have made some brownies, I licked the spoon I mixed it with. Doh! Well I am trying. I CAN do this!

So Funny

Works For Me...Generic Applesauce!

So for years I have thought that I didn't like applesauce. I am not sure why, I don't really remember trying it and not liking it. Who knows though, I don't have a good memory! Well my friend Ashleigh, who I go to the library and walking with, had some natural applesauce with her lunch the other day. She said it was good so I decided to try it. I need to find ways to get my fruit in! I love it! It is so yummy. And it is natural so it doesn't have the added sugar. (I think that is what it means) :) Anyway, we bought the generic Walmart brand and it is YUMMY! I would highly recommend it. Thanks for the suggestion Ashleigh! For more works for me ideas visit We Are THAT Family.

tracking!

Well it is 11:02 and so far I have tracked all of my points today! I don't know what changed but this morning I am a new person. I even resisted some M&M's that I had left in the kitchen last night! I just put a clip on it and put them in the fridge. There may come a time when I want to eat some but I will count them! I was just so proud of how I have done today that I had to write about it.

I am back to this blog!

Ok, so I am back to this blog! I tried to go another route, but it just didn't work.

I have been in such a slump lately. I just don't care about doing weight watchers. Tonight I am supposed to go weigh in and I really don't want to go. I am 99.9% sure that I gained. I just want to not worry about weight loss. I just want to bake all day long! That is something I have such fun doing but it is hard to loose weight and bake yummy goodness all week long! Arg! I am tired and have only wanted to sleep a lot lately. (no I am not pregnant, and those that know me know that I tested) :) I wish that I could just wake up and be skinny! I know that is so not going to happen. Well I don't know what else to write. I guess just PLEASE pray for me. I know the only way I am going to get out of this stupid slump is with God's help.

New site...

Hey all. I am so addicted to the Weight Watcher boards now! I have noticed a lot of people have websites through www.freewebs.com. So I have decided to start one of my own. I will no longer be posting on this blog, so come view my new one at http://createdinhisimage.webs.com/

For those of you who read my husbands blog and noticed that he has a new blog, I am not doing this to copy him, although he isn't a bad person to copy. I didn't even know he had done that until I was in the middle of making my new page! What can I say great minds think alike. :0