kick butt mode...

Okay y'all, this weeks needs to be kick butt week! I need to really kick it into gear. Who's with me? Who can I count on to help me stay on this journey? Any one? Any one? Bueller? Bueller? :)

For reals though I want to get to counting points and to working out everyday. So I want to do another 7 day work out challenge. Do you want to join me in this?

A very honest post....

Do you ever read in articles or see on blogs things that say "weight doesn't define who you are"? I want to be honest, I hate that saying. Because honestly I feel like weight does define who I am. I am fat, plane and simple. If I were skinny I would want that to be something that defined who I was too.

I have been thinking this week about my weight loss journey and I feel as though I will never get to my goal. I am always planning and saying "when I get to my goal weight I will..." but honestly I don't even see the road that leads to the tunnel where the light is supposed to be at the end of. I wish I could be a pretty fat person. I'm not saying I'm ugly, I just see other people that are over weight and they have these amazingly cute clothes that look great on them, but since I have such a big chest nothing cute really fits me.

I wish I was confident with who I was, fat or not.

I wish I would stop loosing my inspiration to loose weight.

I wish I would have listened to my mom when she said it is hard to loose weight once you have kids. (you want to know what my response was to her? it is hard no matter what. Boy was I stupid, it is way harder to loose weight when you have little ones to care for.)

I wish I wouldn't have let myself run out of Diet Dr. Pepper yesterday.

I wish I was a little bit taller (just kidding, but if you are around my age you may know that song).

Okay, my honest post is over. Thanks for listening.

Leave it in The Valley...

Well day two of my 7 day work out challenge is done and over with! I did another 20 minutes on the treadmill tonight. I could have said I only had to do 10 or 15 minutes because I did walk some at the park today, but I decided not to count that because it really wasn't much of a work out.

While I was walking on the treadmill I was listening to my new Mandisa CD. Have you heard of her? I am so loving this CD. It is a great one to work out to because it is just so encouraging. I would highly recommend the Freedom CD. Mainly because that is the one I have ;) (I should mention that I am recommending this on my own, no one has paid me to say this stuff)

So often when it comes to weight loss I feel so down and in the dumps about where I am with it. If I slip up and eat more then I should have I get in the, what I like to call, "screw it all" mood. Which is so silly because you do more damage when you get like that and give up then if you just deal with what you ate and do better from there on out. Anyway, this song by Mandisa called Leave it in The Valley, really encouraged me. I would suggest you listen to it and then go out and support her and buy the CD because there are other songs that are really encouraging on it!

Day one down...

Oh man, I am mega sore from my head to my toes! I walked a mile on the treadmill last night, 23 minutes and 38 seconds! Now I know what you are thinking "why are you sore all over?", well that is a good question. The treadmill can account for the sore legs. The upper half of my body is sore because I was just obeying Mandisa when she sang "throw your hands in the air...dance, dance, dance!" I guess I did it a little too hard. :)

Day two is today and I WILL make it to the end!

7 day challenge...

Remember my 30 day challenge? Well I made it 21 days. :(

I got to thinking this week about doing a 7 day work out challenge. I figured that a shorter challenge is more likely to be completed. The light at the end of the tunnel is easier to see. :)

So who is with me? Would you like to do this 7 day work out challenge with me? I challenge you (and me) to at least 20 minutes of exercise a day. This could be any form that you choose as long as it is at least 20 minutes long. I will start tomorrow, Wednesday November 30th. I will keep you updated on how I do. I would love to have you join me!

Take that turkey...

I lost 6/10 of a pound this week! It may not be much but seeing how it included Thanksgiving, I think that is pretty good! I want to make sure I keep up the working out. I walked on the treadmill yesterday and will plan on doing it again today.

I just want to say that I couldn't be doing this with out my husband. He is such a huge support and doesn't mind if I walk on the treadmill right when he gets home from work. Not that I do that everyday, but yesterday before weigh in I wanted to get a walk in and he didn't mind at all. I sure am blessed to have such a supportive husband!

It's okay...

I gained this week :( But you know I am okay with it. I had several things working against me. First, I am a woman and you know what that means once a month. Second, cookie exchange - enough said. Third, I was sick off and on through out the week.

With all that, it is no wonder I didn't loose! However, I should have planned better regarding the cookie exchange. Also, there were times when I could have worked out but didn't.

This week, being Thanksgiving and all, I will need to really focus on working out and counting my points for everything I eat.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving! Remember it is a holiDAY not a holiWEEK. :)

woo to the hoo...

Woo Hoo y'all, I lost 5 pounds on my first week back to weight watchers! I am so excited to be back. Now if I can just shake this respiratory thing I have going so I can work out with out coughing up a lung.

too long...

I just realized that I hadn't posted since September! Yikes, that is too long!

Here is what has been going on:

1. I joined back to weight watchers. Justin and I both decided it was what I needed to do.

2. I didn't complete the 30 day challenge, but I do want to keep doing the 30 day shred, if I could just stop being sick so I can do it.

3. I did walk on the treadmill once this week. Again, I have been sick so doing things that make me breath hard is too much and makes me start to cough too much. :(

I guess that is pretty much it. I will let you know how my first post joining weigh in goes tomorrow night. Pray that I will look to God and not food.

Day twenty one...

My body is so sore! Seriously, level two is works me so much harder than level one did! With level one, I slept better after I worked out. However, with level two, I am so sore that I just don't sleep good. I know it will pay off in the long run so I am not giving up just because of a few bad nights sleep.

Proud of my friend Liesl, she is the first of our challenge participants who completed the 30 days! 9 more to go for me! I can't wait to be doing this and going to the YMCA. I think it will be a good mix.

What or who do you turn to...

It became so apparent to me this morning just how I turn to food to calm me down. I took Ian to the doctor this morning because he has been sick (tummy issues) and the first thing I wanted to do when we got in the car was go to Braum's and get a bacon, egg and cheese bagel with a large diet Dr. Pepper! Instead though I prayed. I asked God to give me strength to turn to Him rather than to food and drink today. Feeling overwhelmed is tough, but God gives us ways out, just like He does with temptations (I guess we are being tempted to turn to other things rather than to God). Like instead of going to Braum's, as soon as we got home I put Owen in his highchair and set up his Pack N' Play. I put a few toys in it and he is playing quietly in it (for now). I am now able to snuggle with my little sick boy while Owen gets to play. I have calmed down a bit now and I know that I can make it through this day.

Thank you God for calming me down!

***Even just now I made Ian some toast (white bread) and I took a bite of the second piece that I didn't give him. I spit it out though before I was able to swallow it. Man, habits are hard to break, huh?***

Weigh in...

As you can see from my ticker above, I lost 3 pounds this week! Woot woot! I can't wait to keep slimming down. :) See you on the flip side (yeah, I just said that). :)

Day twenty...

This is getting so hard! Day twenty was not an easy thing. I really gave it my all up until the very last set of crunches. I haven't even tried to do them yet. Level two is definitely a hard level, I can only imagine how hard level three is going to be!

I am going to stop typing because my arms are sore. :)

Another day, another level...

Last night, day nineteen, I finally moved up to level 2! Let me just tell you, I feel it! My body was crazy sore this morning when I woke up. I am planning on sticking to level 2, probably for the rest of the challenge. I really don't think I could do level 3 before the end of the 30 days.

I am seriously loving the site myfitnesspal.com! You should really try it out if you need a place to keep track of your food and fitness. It reminds me of what I had with weight watchers with there weight watchers online stuff.

Well I had better stop, I need to try and get some stuff done around the house today. Keep praying for me and let me know if you have found any helpful things on your weight loss journey.

Day seventeen...

Well here we are on day seventeen (okay actually I am writing this the day after day seventeen). I am at the point of being SO done with this working out everyday thing. But I will continue, because of my girls that are doing it with me!

This week I will track my food, no excuses! Like my friend Kellie said "What you eat REALLY matters." So this morning I joined myfitnesspal.com. I can put in my food and it will put the calories in for me.

I also started a new weight loss ticker (see below the title of my blog). I decided I need to consider this a new start to a new journey. I can't keep counting my weight loss from before I was pregnant, I mean that was over 3 years ago!

Day sixteen...

Wow, this is starting to go by so fast! 16 days down 14 to go! I am seriously considering moving up to level two soon. Maybe even today, we shall see.

Have you joined in on this challenge or one similar? I would love to hear from you! Leave me a comment letting me know what kind of challenge you have committed to.

Day fifteen...

Last night was great! I gave about 90%, which is so much more than I had given the two days before! We are half way there! I can't wait for this challenge to be completed. Not because it means I will stop working out, but because then I will be able to say I did it!

I am so thankful for my husband who has been doing this with me! I just know that with out him I would have very easily talked myself into not doing it. Thanks babe!

Days thirteen and fourteen...

The past two days have been tough. I haven't given my all. The other ladies who are doing it are all on level two, so maybe I will move to level two today. Who knows.

Day eleven and twelve, plus a weigh in...

Oops, I guess I forgot to post the last two days! That doesn't mean I haven't been doing The Shred though.

Day eleven was tough. Day twelve was tough. The difference between the two days is that on day eleven I didn't know if doing this had made any difference or not. On day twelve I knew it had! What do I mean you ask? Well thanks for asking, I will tell you.

I lost 3 1/4 pounds! I was so excited! I would have been so upset had I not lost anything. Knowing that what I am doing is making a difference was so great, I didn't even make any threats to Jillian last night! (I usually yell at her during the entire work out. Yes I realize it is a tv, but you would be yelling too if you were doing it)

Thanks for all of your prayers. Please continue to pray that I will continue on with this. God is really teaching me some things right now. I plan to tell you all about that soon.

3 1/4 pounds!!! Sorry, I thought it was worth mentioning twice. :)

Day nine part II...

Well day nine is over. I was telling my accountability ladies that the hardest part of the shred is the first circuit. Once that is over it goes pretty fast. Not to say it isn't a hard work out though.

I am pretty nervous about my weigh in on Sunday. I mean what if I haven't lost weight? How will that effect my emotions, my drive to do the shred?

Trying not to think of it though because tomorrow we are celebrating Ian's 3rd birthday! The actual birthday isn't until later this month, but tomorrow was the best time for us to celebrate due to all of his friends having September birthdays.

Day eight part II...

Well after two days of being sick and one day of going to the hospital for an out patient procedure, I am back to doing the shred! Since I missed some days I will just call them Day ___ part II.

It was tough coming back to it today. It would have been very easy to just not do it. But since I have my accountability girls doing it I knew I had to stick with it. I am so glad we are doing this challenge. I am also glad that the 3 other ladies don't live near by because it would be much easier to talk each other out of it. I'm not sure why I think that, but I do.

So here is to continuing on! See you on the other side!

Day nine...

Yesterday (what would have been day nine of my work out) was horrible. I was SO sick, worse than Monday. I am just so glad to have a wonderful husband who was willing to take care of me and the kids during that time.

Today I am feeling SO much better! I am still going to try to take it easy because I can already tell that if I do too much my headache will come back. I am planning on doing the shred tonight if Justin will let me. I hope to get back on track soon!

Day eight...

Well I am sorry to say that today I wasn't able to do The Shred. :( I have been having really bad lower back pain the last few days so today when I started running a fever I headed to the doctor. I am hoping that tomorrow I will be back to doing the shred and maybe I will even catch up one of these days and do it twice in a day. I am so sad that I could not do it today. So blessed though that I live in a place where I was able to go to the doctor and be seen right away.

Also, I am SO blessed by my husband who is taking care of me. He went to the store to get my medicine and has been rubbing my back and legs all night. He even got me a bowl of soup for dinner. I sure do love that man!

Day Seven...

Today was good. I got to take a nap with out having to wake up and go to my First Place 4 Health. Not that I don't like going to it because I do, I have just missed my Sunday naps! So I got rest then I got to go and have a little bit of time with one of my best friends Misti. Even though she had already eaten she came with me to McAlester's Deli and watched me eat. :) That refreshed me so much that when I got home I was glad to begin the work out.

So with all of that said Day 7 is done!!! I don't believe there has ever been a time when I have worked out 7 days in a row! This is a milestone for me.

Here is my food tracker from today.

Special K cereal w/ chocolate and skim milk
plum

pizza
tea

french dip
fruit cup
diet dr. pepper

Day six...

back hurting...

Ibuprofen taken...

will post my food tracker tomorrow...

goodnight.

Day five...

I'm alive.

I'm still sore.

I want to punch Jillian in the face.

I am looking forward to weigh in on September 11th.

If I haven't lost it is probably because of meals like I had today.

Here is my food from today:

September 2

special K w/ chocolate and skim milk
bacon, egg and cheese bagel

chicken strips
waffle fries
sprite

cheeseburger
fries
diet dr. pepper
cookie

Special K cereal skim milk

Day four...

Hmm, what can I say that I haven't already said? Today actually wasn't bad. I don't know if that means I need to work harder or that I am just getting used to it. Either way I am still doing it and that is a good thing! It has been a long time since I have worked out 4 days in a row.

I am not very proud of what I ate today, so I am not going to share it with you. But I will be back to that tomorrow. :)

Day 5 here I come!

Day three...

Well here I am, alive. I am pretty sore still, but mainly in my abs more than anywhere else. My fellow "shredder" girls all seemed to think today was easier, but not for me! I really struggled with the work out today. Thankfully Justin was right by my side this time or I probably would have been very tempted to cheat. I am really hoping that tomorrow is easier. I am planning on doing it after dropping Ian off at school. This time though, I won't get to rest. Owen and I are going to visit our friend Starla for lunch! I am excited about this because she has the sweetest little one, plus I like to visit with her too. ;)

Here is my food tracker from today. Thanks for keeping up with me. Please continue to pray as I really want to be able to continue this even once the 30 challenge is over.

August 31st

special K cereal w/ chocolate and skim milk

plum

raspberry balsamic chicken
baked potato
salad w/ salad dressing
cookie
tea

taco salad
a few fries
cookie
diet dr. pepper

apples dipped in nutella

Day two...

Ugh, owe, ugh!

I'm pretty sure that is the only way to describe how I feel right now. If I could spell out a groan then I would because every time I get up off the couch or the floor I groan, loud. I'm not sure if Ian was concerned or thinking I was crazy.

Everyone keeps commenting on my facebook status updates telling me that it gets better after day 3 or 4. So I am hoping they are right. I know it will pay off. I just wish this weekend wasn't Labor Day (we don't have First Place 4 Health, which means I don't have our official weigh in). I can only imagine that two weeks worth of this is going to show some great results!

Here is my food tracker for today. (FYI I had a chocolate banana smoothie last night after I posted)

apples
chicken biscuit
fruit cup
1 slice of bacon
1 walnut
small bite of oatmeal
plain biscuit
diet dr. pepper

water

roast beef from arby’s
a few fries from McDonald’s
water

cookies (iced animal cracker type cookies)

mac n ‘ cheese
cookie
water

Day one...

Today I started my 30 day challenge. Let's just say that I hope my children don't need me to hold them over the next few weeks because my arms may not be able to hold them.**Update (I wrote this post earlier this evening) My legs are really feeling it now! YIKES!**

Actually, I am surprised at how quickly I have recovered from day one. My legs still hurt, but my arms aren't too bad. Probably because I didn't use the hand weights that she said to use. I could only find one of them. I will search for the other one tonight so I can be prepared tomorrow.

One of the things I like about it is that by the time you feel like you are going to quit she starts counting down from 5, so you know you can finish 5 more seconds worth. She is also encouraging while being strict. So day one down and only 29 to go. I sure hope I can do this.

Here is my food tracker from today. As you can see, I included everything down to the one french fry I had. Hopefully the more I do this the more detailed I will get, like putting down how much of each thing I eat (ex: 1/2 cup mac n' cheese).

August 29, 2011

4 scrambled eggs w/ some onions in it
½ glass of chocolate milk (skim)
toast w/ butter

grilled chicken sandwich w/ bbq sauce on it
fruit cup
1 fry
diet dr. pepper (refilled once)
a few bites of the soft serve ice cream at chick fil a
a bite of chicken nugget

crackers (afternoon snack)

hot dog wrapped in crescent roll w/ cheese and fried onion strips
mac n cheese
water

Challenge accepted...

One of my very sweet and very good friends has challenged me! I love a good challenge and especially one that I will have accountability with.

Our challenge is this: 30 days of doing the 30 day shred. Did you just gasp? I'm pretty sure I heard you gasp. As you can guess this is going to be a pretty tough challenge. But we are going to keep each other accountable and hopefully you readers out there will help us too. I am going to do my best to blog everyday about the how I am doing. Even if all I write is something like "I'm dying", you will at least know that I have done my work out. ;)

I am also going to challenge myself to write down my food. This is something that I have been struggling with since having Owen. Whether on Weight Watchers or First Place 4 Health, it has been a huge struggle. I think one reason is because I know I am not eating what I should or in portions that I should. So this should hopefully help me out. What I would like to do is post it here on my blog (perhaps my amazing computer genius husband can figure out some cool way for me to do that with out having to make it too hard).

So there you go! Challenge accepted. We will begin the death...er...Shred on Monday! I can't wait, I hope you will stay with me on this and help me out if you know me in "real life" or if you only know me in "blog life" leave me a comment. I would love to hear from you.

Prayers are always accepted too. :)

FYI...

I'm not doing that good. Pray for me. I want to get out of this slump, it has been a really long slump.

How am I doing?

The last few weeks have been so up and down. I hate it when I have down days but I love those up days.

Yesterday was an up day. I woke up early, not on purpose mind you, but I decided to get some things done. I started the dishwasher, which I should mention my wonderful husband had unloaded and loaded the night before. I turned off the alarm (so it wouldn't go off when Justin left) and made Justin's lunch. Then I even did my Bible study! I have been doing pretty good at making sure I do my Bible study before the kids wake up, but for some reason this day was different. I am so glad I chose to do it. It was really a great study and I feel like it helped me all through out the day to make smart choices.

Then there are days like today. Ugh. Very much a down kind of day. It is like I just woke up with a huge cover of tiredness and depression on me. I had no desire to get out of bed and found myself mad when Owen woke up crying about 6:45. I didn't get Justin's lunch made or turn off the alarm for him (he did turn it off himself). I didn't do my Bible study either. I just laid in bed until a little after 7, when I decided Owen had cried long enough and wasn't going to go back to sleep. This feeling just kept over me the entire day. It effected the choices I made too. I didn't make good choices, let's just leave it at that.

Do you think Satan can just sense when we are going to stomp on his plan? I think so. I think that because of my good day on Monday that he could tell something good was going to happen. The bad part is that I just let him stomp on me instead.

I am going to pray that tomorrow is a better day and that I won't let Satan stomp on me like he did today. Will you pray with me?

Choosing sin...

Do you choose to sin?

Sounds like a deep question, right? Well I got to thinking this week about how much I actually choose to sin. I mean so often there are situations that God will just straight up say "don't do that" and yet I do it anyways. It sounds so bad, because it is bad.

I want to be able to say that I at least try to make the right decisions, but this last week, I didn't even try. Several times I ate things that I knew God was telling me not to eat. I gained 1/4 of a pound this week. Hmm, do you think that if I had actually listened to what God was telling me, that just maybe I would have lost? We will never know, but I do know this: What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? (Romans 8:31, NIV)

It's a new day...

I am feeling good today! Well minus my body being sore due to a big fall I had yesterday after church, but other than that, I am feeling good!

I decided to take it as a complement that Satan is trying so hard to bring me down. You know what, I am not going to let him succeed! I had my Bible study this morning and have been righting down my calories, even the piece of birthday cake I had with my lunch.

Take that Satan! You have no power over me! Jesus already has the victory!

Cookied dough anyone?

Have you ever had one of those days where all you want to do is eat a thing of cookie dough? Well that is how my evening has been. My day was actually pretty good. It was my first day to keep track of calories (or food groups depending on how you look at it). I went just a little over my goal of 1600 calories.

I am so thankful for the leader of my First Place 4 Health group! She is such an encourager. I learned from WW that it is SO important to have the support of those around you. And now, in FP4H, it is just being reiterated. I can't wait to see where this takes me in life! I am just so excited!

If you think of it, pray for me this week. I know that it will be easy for Satan to tempt me. Between the heat and me starting my monthly time. He really knows how to get to me. The good thing is this: ‎"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man .And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." -- I Corinthians 10:13

So much for that thought...

I thought I would be going back to the YMCA this week, however that has not happened. My entire family has been sick! Seriously all three boys are dealing with stomach issues. Not fun at all I tell you, not fun! I am glad that I haven't got the bug and am praying that my headache from last night and this morning doesn't come back.

I did get to go to the First Place 4 Health meeting on Sunday afternoon! I think I am going to really like it. Not saying I won't have hard weeks or weeks that I just want to quit, but I feel like my walk with God will help me through those times. One of the things I like most about this program is that it focuses on the spiritual aspect too. I already have two Bible verses to memorize and have ordered my kit and Bible Study book! I can't wait to really get started. For right now I am just writing down what I eat, not really changing much about what I eat yet. I will keep you updated on how this goes. I go to the meeting once a week, kind of like Weight Watchers. For now if you will all just pray for health for my boys and that I don't catch anything (I have trouble not giving my boys kisses).

I'm still here...

I haven't disappeared from the face of the earth, I have just had a REALLY busy week! Between VBS at my church and two of my nieces coming to stay with us for a few days I just haven't had much time to blog about things.

As far as working out goes I skipped the YMCA this week. We had VBS in the mornings, which honestly was a pretty good work out! Then the boys take there naps in the afternoon, so I decided to not go this week.

But this week I will start back, so pray that I will have the energy to complete each days work out! I am also going to a meeting today for a program called First Place 4 Health. I will let you know what I think about it later this week.

Kick butting...

Er, I mean Kick Boxing. :) Yeah, I did a kick boxing class this week! Man it kicked my butt! I am still feeling the effects of it! I had to sit out several times because I was either too winded or my back hurt too bad. But I did stay till the end! Which from the sounds of it is a pretty big thing!

I am hoping my headache goes away today so I can finally go to the zumba gold class, which sounds like the advanced zumba but it isn't, it is the zumba for beginners. :) I am hoping I will actually be able to do this one!

Have any of you ever heard of First Place 4 Health? I am considering joining a meeting place here in OKC. If you have heard of it or have ever been a part of it please let me know what you thought of it. It sounds to me very similar to WW but with a spiritual aspect. Which is very, VERY important.

Take two...

I did another cycle class! I was super sore this go round. Mainly my lower back hurt. It still does but I think I need to just push through it. Yesterday I went on a walk and felt much better so there you go!

I am going to try kick boxing tonight! Wish me luck!

Cycling class...

This week I took a cycling class! I have to admit after talking to my close friend Liesl I was a little scared to go. But knowing that my other two friends were going to be there too, I pushed through my fears and arrived at the class. I might just mention that I brought one bottle of water, which was not enough for me to finish the class! I had to stop and go fill it up half way through.

With my lack of water aside, I really enjoyed the class. I don't think I have sweated that much in a long time! I'm talking I could have filled up a bath tub with the amount of sweat that my shirt absorbed. Too graphic? Well sorry, I don't know how else to sell it to you. :)

The bad things about this class? Well let me see, my rear (and other areas near the rear) hurt seriously bad for about a day and a half after the class. Also, I am not able to do the hard core parts yet because it was way hard core for me, like when they "run" (basically standing while riding the bike). I tried a couple of times, but couldn't do it more than a few seconds. But really, over all, I liked it. I am bummed that Monday is a holiday because the YMCA will be closed, which means I don't get to go cycling. :( Perhaps I will be able to talk my hubs into going on a walk that day instead.

I suppose that is all. Well except the fact that I tried the Body Pump class again and was only able to stay for about 25 minutes. It was tougher the second time around. I honestly thought it would be easier. Oh well, perhaps I will go again next Wednesday.

And now, since you have sat through this novel of a post, I will reward you with this picture of my sweet babes. Aren't they the cutest? You don't have to answer that, I already know they are. ;)

this weeks results...

I am down 1.4 pounds!

Oh me, oh my...

As you know last week I tried Zumba with my friend Kristen. Then I tried water aerobics (by myself). On Saturday I mowed our lawn (front and back) and in the front yard I didn't use the self propel feature.

So how have I done so far this week? Well on Monday I was REALLY tired and sore, but my friends and family must have been praying for me because I got a random burst of energy and got the boys ready and went to work out at the YMCA. We got there a little after 11, which I figured wasn't too bad since the class I wanted to go to started at 11. However, when I arrived and got the kids in the child watch area I realized that the class was not what I thought it was going to be. So I ended up walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes.

Yesterday (Tuesday) I decided I would opt out of working out because my shoulders and back were extremely sore. But today my friend Kristen met me once again at the YMCA and we did a class called Body Pump. It was pretty much weight lifting. I was impressed that I made it though the entire class (well I technically didn't there were some moves at the end that I just couldn't do, but maybe with time I will be able to). I am really thankful for my friend Kristen as I would not have gone today if she wasn't going to be going too. We have decided to go to this class once a week, so hopefully I will continue to get better at it.

I am not sure what I will be doing tomorrow, perhaps water aerobics again? I will keep you updated. Please continue to pray for strength to do this. I really want to keep it up.

Also, I had my last weigh in with Weight Watchers last week. I will be weighing in once a week still just doing it at the YMCA. Thankfully they have a scale much like the one at WW.

And here is a picture just for reading this long post :) My inspiration for doing all of this!

Picture taken by Katy from Life Captured by Katy.

Water aerobics...

Thursday morning I gathered the boys up and I went back to the YMCA! This time headed for water aerobics. It was fun! There were 4 other women, including the instructor. As you can imagine they were older in age :) I have to say, I am still really sore. I am not sure if it is still from the zumba class or a combination of the two classes (zumba and water aerobics) or just the water aerobics. Who knows, but the good thing is that it means my body is getting worked out!

So I think on Monday I will try the shallow water water aerobics. Wish me luck! Actually I think a few prayers will work out better for me. :)

change of plans...

Well this morning I woke up to go to aerobics at the YMCA and realized (before leaving, thankfully) that the child care didn't start till 8:15, the class started at 7:45. I was bummed but decided I would try out a zumba class.

My friend Kristen came with me and we toughed it out. I didn't get the memo that you had to be on crack to do zumba. :) Just kidding, but it was high intensity though. Perhaps I should go to the beginner class. I am just glad Kristen was there because I am pretty sure I would have found an excuse to leave early!

I am going to go to a water aerobics class tomorrow. :) That might be more my speed. I will keep you updated.

YMCA...

I joined the YMCA! I am SO excited. I am so blessed to have a husband who works hard so I can do things like this. When I was single I would have never been able to afford a Y membership. Thank you to my wonderful husband!

I am also excited about it because I have some friends who go to the classes at the Y. This will help me stay accountable to going. I also feel like I eat better when I am working out.

So stay tuned to hear about my first aerobics class. I am going tomorrow to get my work out on! Wish me luck and say a prayer because I am not sure how I will do. :)

Just what I needed to hear...

You know those days when you just need to hear an encouraging word? Something that will show you that you are not alone in this journey called life? Well today I got those words!

First, I read a blog that I had kind of forgotten about. Mainly because the blogger hadn't blogged in a very long time (much like myself, but for different reasons). I found the post that finally explained why she hadn't blogged. The neat thing was, was that it was nothing big. It was just life was happening and she decided to live it rather than blog it. Well I recently came to a conclusion to give up facebook. I'm talking no more stalking people who I haven't seen in years (you know what I'm talking about, don't even act like you don't). I realized it was just taking up too much of my time and thoughts that should be going towards my husband and kids.

Second, I again was reading a blog that I had forgotten about, and it was just an encouraging post. You can see the full post here. But this is one of the things that stuck out to me:

The truth is, things just take time. Even 'suddenly-moments' take a while to spring forth. But one thing I learned about waiting on God is that He is always good. He always has our highest and best interests at heart. And when we trust Him enough to give Him room to work, He does His best work on our behalf. Truly, His loving attention to detail will woo any heart that loves Him!

It was a good reminder that my weight loss journey will take time. I know that it is not so much a spiritual thing, but God cares about it just the same. I just need to trust him and do what I know to be right.

I do hope that you will join me in this journey. It amazes me just how much I need the encouragement of others. I am not sure why it amazes me, but for some reason it does. :) I do hope you will comment and share your thoughts and if you have a blog share it too. I want to do this and I want to succeed!

So many thoughts...

I realized the other day that I have really neglected my weight loss blog. I can tell you that the reason is because I have not been doing very well with my weight loss.

I don't know what my problem is. I just have no desire to work out or to count my points. I have talked about quitting weight watchers all together. This makes me sad. I have never before even considered quitting WW. I have always been such a firm believer that WW is the way to go when it comes to weight loss, but now I am just so discouraged that I don't even know what to do.

Perhaps the answer is in this blog. I didn't know that there is a way to look at all the comments until the other day when I was trying to delete some spam comments. I was amazed at all of the encouraging comments that people had made.

Here is what I have decided I need in order to accomplish my weight loss. First it would be really nice to have a personal chef. Not just to make all of our meals, but to teach me how to make them too. That way eventually he/she could take days off and I would be responsible for cooking yummy healthy meals. Second, I need a personal trainer. I mean weight loss isn't all about the food we eat. I need to know how to work out. Again, he/she would teach me these things so that someday I would no longer need them and I could do it on my own some day. And third, I would need a nanny to watch my kids while I am learning how to cook and how to work out. Of course in addition to me doing all of this stuff I still have to find time to be a good wife and mom.

I can dream, right? Perhaps I need to audition for The Biggest Looser? I am not sure it would be possible seeing how I have two little ones and a husband at home who works a full time job.

So we are back to where I started when I began this post. What am I supposed to do in order to get my desire to loose weight back? HELP. Seriously, if you have any suggestions as to what might help, I am actually asking for your opinions. There is no way that I want to go back to the weight that I was when I started my weight loss journey. I want to be around for my husband and my kids. I want to have more kids someday, but I really don't want to have them while I am so obese.

Please know that I know that I am obese. I am not overweight. If I were I would only need to loose a little bit of weight. I need to loose over a hundred pounds. YIKES! I never wanted to be here. I am such an emotional eater. I wish I had it in me to just eat when hungry.

Okay, enough of this. I think I will go walk on the treadmill. Perhaps I will feel better and more encouraged. Again if you have any words of wisdom on how to get out of this funk then PLEASE let me know.